Is a force
Not a performance
Not a cutsey curtsey
Not a subtle socially conditioned splotched of blush on the cheek to indicate interest
It IS the RELENTLESS NATURE OF MY YES
That I use to attract
Myself to the things
I Desire
There is no social coding that confirms my yes
They get in the god damn fucking way
How many more times do I need to explain it to people that their social performances are what harms me
What turns me off
What pushes me away
What drives me to sustain the attraction I once had
While I watch them flail as they crumble into another prescribed social script
Unable to retain their own authenticity
To sustain the physical presence near my own
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You know I really don’t think I’m THAT intimidating
But when that’s the only comment I’ve ever received about my dating performance
I’m starting to think I’m not the problem.
I know what I find attractive
I do not know how to socially navigate a performance that has nothing to do with my attractions in order to gain access to my attractions.
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If I just plainly state what my attractions are…I am shamed by members of my community…only. Never a conservative, never a republican, never a MAGA has ever shamed me for my sexuality. Only other allegeded queers, unable to handle my clarity on my own desires.
Sex, no gender or gender expressions please. Tear it all down and let’s reconstruct our own.
What is confusing about that?
Y’all get off perforMANing the patriarchy?
Ew.
Anyone else know what I am refering you?
