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The eye cast down, a spell of chastity set for centuries

The blush on the cheeks, a symptom of your guilt of arousing the offensive nature of others

&

for not playing your part

in flattening your face

stiffening your lip

& following through what every nerve in your body tells you not to do

Shame is innate

It is beyond an emotion, but an affect regulator, specifically of joy and interest. Shame is what modulates an incomplete reduction of positive affect. Please see tomkins affect and script theory for more information, but I am writing a personal blog post, not a phD so don’t expect sources for the soup of my mentality.

Anywhoo

Babies demonstrate shame, alone, & in the company of others.

Though many might want to associate shame soley with society; that is part of our societies disordered use of shame only, not a condition that needs to be propagated.

Our basis of biology is smeared by the reducing agent of our perspective.

The Western reductionism, moral intellectualism, consumerification of innate experience & more into the soup of society hoping to defacto its brew for the masses; like a cancer cell ravaging your healthy organs for their nutrition for their morbid growths.

But I am still blessed to be in the late modern century where much work has been done to neutralize and remove the implicit biases of our previous species. It is a continuing, ongoing, perpetual goal of our species to remove, recover, and become more resilient against the farms of fascism in our flesh.

So to recalibrate ourselves briefly; yes history has a biased perspective, however, not all of its conclusions were incorrect. Modern Medical students benefitted from the work of nazis carving up innocent jews for anatomy study. The more bizzare the torture, the more bizzare the outcomes of said events. Shame evolving into hate into the dissection of another person and the careful meticulous documentation of their dehumanized and now reanimated, resketched into paper for the information delights of those deemed worthy to survive, for now. Until the rules change with the egoic tides of the puppetmasters behind the scenes. (You know, the iluminati types)

The societal shame disorder is as follows:

1. Condition a sense of what is normal and not normal into the culture via implicit and explicit biases be it overt productions or subtle infrastructure and legalized authority. Repeat for 10,000+ years & base all technological advancements on intellectual separation from our external environment.
2. Presume authority and superiority over mastery over nature; one of the longest and oldest tendrils of shame within our species is the integrated energy in our society that man is better than nature, that nature is something wild, feral, and to be tamed, & that all women are closer to nature therefore more wild and in need of taming by ‘rational’ men. (See: Pocaterra’s Two Diagloges on Shame)
3. Create objects that replace the natural, innate abilities of ‘wild’ humans and restrict access to objects via a system of currency exchanges for labor but only specific labor under specific conditions after the correct qualifications have been assessed and mastered by the individual desiring the necessary resources for its survival. Put on your collared shirt & work first.
4. Build in a reward system for violent adherence to the systemic regulations that entitle those who provide the most complicit performances the most access to an abundance of resources and the most access to alter the status of the system and the regulations that are on the face designed to protect others from people like them. (psst, that’s not the game and never was, it was always a scam)
5. Reduce the options for deviant performances, allowing for variations within the falsified dichotomy of options to invoke the feeling of free will by the cattle of consumers.
6. Allow for cycles of ‘inclusivity’ as technology allows to gaslight the consumers into thinking the system is changing for their benefit. When instead, it has merely crafted another puppet costume for you to play with.
7. Craft any resource necessary to ensure as little humans as possible realize they have been programmed into being cattle, puppets for the patriarchs, for the consumption of those who continue the system, will never change it for anyones benefit, not even their own (Plenty of evidence of people coming to power and pulling the rug up on their own methods)
8. Rinse & repeat until everyone forgets that shame is there to help develop soverignty, not society. Your eyes cast down, your internal historical record rises, you use your compass to guide you through your inner story to reveal where you think you are in your cycle, where you want to be, & where others are, think they are, and want to be and want you to be. (whew that’s a lot of thinking we do isn’t it?)

Shame is the reason you stay.

& to me,

Shame is the reason to leave.

Please understand, we are shamefully, not the same.

It is all too common of a narrative to share 1 good thing about yourself then 10 shameful things, hoping for validation. Meanwhile I internally collapse, wondering how such a person could make so many bad decisions in a row like that & I am to sit here and accept them into my flock?

Something just doesn’t sit right in the way modern humans present themselves It’s so painfully obvious it is a charaicature & I am so painfully aware that this is not an integrated part of me but one forced onto me through centuries of attempts & yet I remain still alive as ever, still resilient against the inclusion of their narrative into my own soul.

Now

There are plenty of ways I could, would, and should be used, consensually

But you actually need to ask me

Which shame driven people do not seem to have the capacity to do.

They lack their inner selves; which is more the program or access method to their inner selves, not a full maturation of that inner self which is already innately more mature than most modern humans will give it credit for

& sentiently aware of that, by the way.

& aware of all of the attempts to silence it.

(Mine is at least)

So without soverignty, they must perform the scripts they are powerless to stop, having no other method or access, they perform the societal script. Programmed, NPCs, unconscious, conservatives, whatever you want to call them. They are helplessly trapped in an internally derrived loop of external programming that prevents them from metabolizing their shame into a healthy personal narrative.

& we’ve been abusing ourselves with this disorder ever since.

But their inability to digest their shame has no impact on my ability.

I have an ability

So I can process my own.

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Sovereignly Yours,

Regardless